If you haven't guessed by the title's name, I tried making my 'disaster' again yesterday and once again, it didn't come out as expected. My hubby was full of suggestions and encouragement when the first disaster came out of the oven, so armed with those, I tried this once again.

Let me start with telling you what I envision. I envision a cookie cake with a yummy creamy marshmallow and chocolate topping. The cookie cake part will be a peanut butter cookie, because I've learned that in order to keep hubby happy, all I have to do is flavor things with peanut butter.

Disaster number one was caused for two reasons - 1. I did not let the cookie part "set" and harden before putting the marshmallow goodness on top, which meant they all blended together to make, well randomness. 2. I needed flour or something to make it more the consistency of a cookie and to counteract the richness of the ingredients.

Naturally, I took those lessons to heart and this time I used both flour and let it set and harden. Problem is, the cookie cake part is more cake than cookie. It's good but it's dry. And I didn't use nearly enough marshmallows on the topping so it's sporadically covered.

Part of me wants to say, WHATEVER! And just stick to using recipes for the rest of my life - and seriously, who tries to bake without recipes first? I think I might be setting myself up for failure. Plus, we're not the type of family who throws food out, so whatever disaster comes out of the oven has to go into our tummies (this is mostly due to stories from the former Soviet Union that have been both told to me and I've read in the course of completing my Russian Literature reading list).

And then another part of me really wants to get this right and have my first made-up recipe under my belt. I think what I may do is take a few weeks off and bake things with recipes from now on and then one day, when I'm feeling adventurous I will attempt to right this wrong.

In the meantime, I hope none of you are holding your breath for this recipe.